Back Into Shape

Aloha new year runners :D Heiii.. What've you been doing for these four new days beside planning some resolutions :D?? I know u'll agree if I said that it feels fully rechargeable if we always have a time boundaries right?! New year, new life, new born.. All of the new stuffs always give the spirit for a new beginning.. it's like.. um.. new boyfie..!!

Hehe.. After struggled for some months, finally I've found somebody new. Somebody who really much much much better than before as a partner in my life. His name is Fahmi, but i call him Isle, a sweet and very handsome youngman. I feel really really blessed for having him in my life. I always happy when having him around, he makes me laugh with his very-old-fashion jokes (huhu, sorry sweetie.. but you're very great when doing those!), when I feel miserable it feels everything will be just fine with only hug him tight, his kisses just make me feel safe and warm. Hhh.. lucky me for falling in love with him.. (huhu..) At least for these five months he's the greatest boyfriend in the world, hopefully it will last forever ya my Isle.. :)
He's four years older than me, both of us are belonging in Capricorn Community. I hate to say this, but his cutey face makes me 2 years older than him! Huh!

Having him around just like having plenty vitamins for starting over all of my activities everyday. We can talk about everything, we can sing about anything, we discuss about everyone in this world, we read the sky and the wind together, and we learn each other with what our own life been running without complaining at each other. As my mother had told me once upon a time, she said that a great partner is someone who will always support you to the way of happiness leading, and when God leads you to the edge of the cliff, trust him fully coz there's only one of the two things will happen; either he will catch you when you fall or he will teach you how to fly. I'm wishing I can get this from him.

Talking about new thing, i'm in a mission to search a new job for this year. Although a chance for continuing my further education as a psychologist still not walking near me around until now, but from psychology I can still learn about the way I have to know myself to make myself happy. When there's a sign for something which starting make my life not normaly breathing, I'll ask myself, do i really want to do this? What's the reason i have to stand longer than this? This isn't about good or bad nor best or worst. With having some choices, I feel alive. As a friend told me, u may not feel confuse when it's hard to decide. You must be thankful you still have a chance to choose, many people out there couldn't have a choice at all. Whether what i'll have forward, i hope i still have time for not feeling a glass ceiling syndrom ;)

Reviewing all of my statements up there, I think I don't have any resolution for this year, but for my daily project I'm challenging myself to be more happy and not wasting my time. To be more happy I'll search and do everything I enjoy to get in to. I just want to have an interesting and inspiring life. Oh yeah, I think I have an interesting issue for my next post, this' inspired by a chit-chat that my boyfriend and I discussed in our latest date last weekend. Enjoy your first week in 2010 everybody!! Gbu :)

'roomy...' that's the way he always says when calling me =P

Selamat Ulang Tahun Papah

Pah.. Selamat Ulang Tahun ya..

Sehat selalu.. Sayang kita selalu.. Ganteng selalu..

Papah yang hebat selalu..

(Padang, August 18th 2009)

Suddenly I See

One of the greatest thing I'll always remember from my childhood is a cup of hot chocolate milk in my every-little girl-day. I had to drink it from a fully volume, then finished it until the last drop. I do this since (hm... i can't remember the time specifically) I was in a red-white uniform (it's elementary school, dude..=p) until I reached my high school period. It has been disappeared when I was starting my college time, I've been living by myself in my parent's house in Jogja at that time, owyees you're right, it caused by i'm too lazy to make a cup of milk every morning of course, hehe... It sounds simple huh, but I'll tell you what make it special as being a part of my life: my mother.

I rarely have mother-daughter time with her. When every girl has been spending their adolescent period with sharing the stories about everything which had been happened that day, telling whom they love at the present, learning how to stick on make up on their face, buying their first bra, sparing opinions about the fashion we're wearing... Hufp, neihaa... it just happened (maybe) twice in a year. My mom has a career in her life, she'd been doing her seven-five activity each day in a whole week, then on Saturday-Sunday, her status will became with out of home with her office's mate. I've to admit this, at that time I hate to have a mother like her, at that time, but the best thing I'll always remember about her is she'd been always spend her rush schedule with making breakfast for my family every morning, and yes i'll repeat it again, the best part is that hot chocolate milk -part. I always sad when my mom had to go out of city for her duties. I just noticed this when someday I wake up in a morning-school-day, then I realized that there was no hot chocolate milk which my mom usually made. I felt so.. gloomy, and suddenly I see, it was hurt when I realize I was having a day without her. Although everyday was only represented by a cup of hot chocolate milk.

I often to think, how the world will run if there's no me in there. Is it ok? Is there someone who will miss me that much? Or will it feel miserable so far? What does it feel? Do I really matter with my own life? And of course there's so many other WHATS which keep dancing in my blank experimental mind.

I have a relationship named bestfriend with not more than five if I want to spell it on quantity. But thank God, my bestfriends are people with their great life.

Bestfriend is a subject who will always search and miss you when you're undiscovered, bestfriend will always know how to make you safe and warm. How can I know...

This' not first time I do think about this. When this feeling come to my mind, I usually make myself dissapears for a while in my own world. Turn off my mobile phone, go to the place I don't know, driving all day long around the city, and living somebody's world. It's like stopping my own personality become somebody that I really want at that time. And it will feel good when I return to my real life and there're many people will be asking me with this magical words, "where have you been, dear.."

That will make an answer how a day in the world will run without me :)

I've found this pop draw when last week I visited my house in bekasi. I've made it in the past when I was feeling alone. I was so happy when I found this kind of scrawl. For me, a sketch can recall a memory behind, but if it was bad, i'll remember that with a process I've successfully passed with a great mark ;)